Truest of all Devotions

Since years....I’m going through this Pain,
hiding my tears in the rain.

Like an addict, I keep thinking of nothing but you!
I wonder on the streets, hoping to see you.
Like always I return home, not finding you anywhere…
And then my worn-out body feels your existence -   everywhere!

I proposed you once; you rejected me a thousand times.
So wounded and dejected I was……, till I heard your voice.
The failure in me, kept me away from you…
Although From a distance, I wanted to see you….
The looser me! Kept hiding from you.
In your Love… I did things… I had never done before.
As my emotions went Deeper; the pain grew further more.

No hopes, I have… of getting you in my life.
But want to tell you not once, but many times…
“Dear my Love is Truest of all Devotions!”

If I’m to live more…Tomorrow I’ll be 70!!!!
But no one I have, to share this, in the Vicinity.

Yeah! There are many people around me...
But no one I feel more own than you be.
So!!! Lonely I feel, like a stick floating in the sea.
So much of time I have…
But no time I have, to spend with you.

They say I’m gone mad….
Yeah!! I’m mad, only about you.

                                                                                    - Ganesh R. Pillai

                                                                             [Dedicated to my love who never loved me]